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camerons back

21st Jun 2012, 9:35 AM in LONG WAIT - in colorado springs
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uradhere 21st Jun 2012, 9:35 AM edit delete
Nov 2010

Yeah, heres the way I seeit.. not saying its right, but its the way I seeit.

blah blah start!**
Suicide. you never asked anyone to be here and this world is hard, so I cant blame anyone for leaving.
If you have a job, get someone to cover your shift. If you owe a debt, make sure its paid. If you have a lover, break it off. If you have a kid.. well you're just gonna hafta wait till they're moved out.
And dont make a mess, someone is going to hafta clean up that shit. And dont make it overly dramatic, your dying sure, but dont take that opportunity to rant about injustice or hate or whatever.
I'll miss you, but Im not going to lie to you and tell you that your life is worth something. Theres tons of worthless people out there. Whether your life is worth something or not is entirely up to you.
thanks for listening, internet.
**blah blah end

So this was Cameron's second visit to Cedar Springs, I love Cameron but at this point he was being destructive toward the family. Im not down with that.

I've found that Im a lot better at having conversations with people when I have something to chew on... As evidenced by how many comics i have of me eating.

Cameron is alive and better than ever. He so good at living that he puts most of you livers to shame.
Im in france, all of the internet adverts are in french. heh. nifty.


Simud 22nd Jun 2012, 5:31 AM edit delete reply
Suicide is usually associated with running away, because, it's true, it usually means running away. But I've learned of some cases in which suicide becomes the final act of creation in someone's life. And by creation I mean conscious design of one's destiny. People have a right to live as much as they have a right to die. So if I ever get to feel my life is done, I find it comforting to know I will be able to decide whether to continue or not.
uradhere 22nd Jun 2012, 9:27 AM edit delete reply
those are smart words.
demontales 22nd Jun 2012, 9:30 AM edit delete reply
I kinda have the same vision on the subject.

Also I'm not sure if I commented on your comic bedore, if not, well I really like it!
uradhere 22nd Jun 2012, 10:50 PM edit delete reply
I cant recall, this may be the first. thank you very much. Im honored.
SotiCoto 28th Jul 2012, 2:06 PM edit delete reply
Got the attitude of a responsible, reasonable person... you have.

I've tried to kill myself a few times. I wasn't very good at it, mostly on account of not liking the idea of pain. I'm totally cool with the idea of ending, but it is the bit right before that which bothers me... much to my annoyance.

Anyway... I got locked up in a loony-bin for failing to kill myself... and I managed to talk my way out eventually by lying my arse off.
The only time I've ever knowingly, willingly, deliberately lied... And I did it masterfully. And it is the worst feeling I've EVER had...

I can honestly say the whole debacle with St Ann's made me want to be dead far more than I had before... but the absolute horror of potentially ending up there again (and permanently) has made me afraid to even try killing myself since.

(p.s. If I did succeed at killing myself, I'd totally want to leave a mess... on account of my being that sort of a dick. This is totally different to doing it just due to not thinking things through though.)
uradhere 28th Jul 2012, 6:16 PM edit delete reply
you are a quite a character, man. if you'll indulge my curiousity; what is it about lying that made you feel bad?

and I agree, intentional mess is much different than careless mess. now and then I will purposefully place garbage on the ground beside an empty bin.
SotiCoto 29th Jul 2012, 7:25 AM edit delete reply
Lying is unnatural to me. My mind is hard-wired in WYSIWYG mode... totally stark literal much of the time. Saying one thing and meaning another is kinda alien to me, outside of standardised, well-established metaphor and modes of sarcasm.
I only managed it in St Ann's because I hastily constructed a roleplaying persona who wasn't me, and then just played the role. Couldn't have done it otherwise. But when I was done, I felt like I'd lost my identity somewhere in there. Was sickening.
magicmurd3rbag 9th Aug 2012, 3:10 AM edit delete reply
I've attempted suicide quite a few times, be it because I was depressed, freaked out over some huge change, or lonely enough to not want to exist with solid forms. I believe that when a person dies, their soul stays around, and that soul can see you and know you better than they ever did solid and alive. That scares me, because I've got some dark secrets hidden away.

Even after taking countless psychology classes, working with sick and abused children, suicide still urks and confuses me. It's frustrating. Most people who don't succeed are happy they didn't die, and often turn their lives around for a short time. Sometimes though, a person is so determined to die... The cycle of "attempt, survive, heal, repeat" never ends. It's painful, and the depression stays almost forever.
uradhere 9th Aug 2012, 3:14 PM edit delete reply
the cycle is something I have a hard time tolerating. hence the semi-dramatic threat toward my brother.